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The sheer futility and normalcy of life: there are moments when I read or see something that makes me realise just how so very little any of our life paths can deviate from another's should we choose to stay in this little island. It feels like this place is but a collection of almost homogeneous lives which follow the path of study -> work/maybe start a family -> die, and the monotony of this very thought brings out in me a great feeling of frustration. I know no society in the world is absolutely perfect, or perhaps my notion of the Singapore society as I just opined above is terribly flawed or myopic, seen through the rose-tinted glasses of one of the privileged. Still...among the friends I've discussed this with many have agreed, and not a negligible proportion of them have expressed their deep desire to leave this ostensibly oppressive Singapore system which seems to direct all of us to a uniform path through life. I do empathise with their points of view and similarly wish to...what? Stray from the pack and pursue an unexpected track? Travel the world? (good gracious yes please) Just leave Singapore and live in a different country, one where I feel less pressured to be the very best in everything I do or else, one where there is less widespread discontentment with The System? Yet it will be incredibly difficult, for me at least; while indeed I've had 'experience', if you will, with being away from my dad and my extended family for a stretch of time, moving permanently overseas beyond Asia will undoubtedly make me painfully homesick >< Not to mention having to adjust to the new culture (pretty sure I took at least 3 years to adjust to Singapore when I first moved here haha), and then what if I become equally dissatisfied with the state of matters in that country?

There's just so many things about what I'm going to do with my future that I need time to think about, but A's sigh... T_T