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Whee successful first day of sticking to my study schedule! :D Only 27 more days to go... ^^; I guess the most difficult issue I'll be facing this month will be finding things to look forward to, things to wake up for every day; I know the next month (the next few months leading up to the A's, actually) is going to be painfully monotonous, and the novelty of studying (I honestly woke up this morning feeling excited to carry out my study plan HAHA) will wear off soon, perhaps as soon as tomorrow. My June holidays are pretty barren as of now, and yes I do desperately need all this time to consolidate everything, but I must admit that the thought of having to discipline myself and sit down to study everyday is terribly daunting >< Currently in an attempt to recruit a study buddy living around my area haha efforts have been pretty futile though sigh :'(

OK YES pointless rambling aside...not quite sure why but I've been thinking about R&J for a fair bit lately! I'm starting to wonder if I am a lot more similar to Romeo than I once thought, which is really not a very comforting notion since he's often been described as a 'spineless wimp of a man' slash 'whiny little kid' by my ex Lit teacher... ^^; I guess I identify with his hopelessly romantic (hmm don't think this is the right term to describe him actually, but in my own defence it's been 1.5 years since lit!!! ;___;) side; if there is something that I'm pretty sure everyone who's read/studied R&J would agree on, it'd be that Romeo was in a kind of Petrarchan love with Rosaline (I'm 10000% convinced that he wasn't truly in love with Juliet either, hnnnhgn the memory of all his ridiculous antics coming back to me....T^T But this is one of the most contestable issues in the play so I'll zip it for now haha) and I suppose I understand the attraction? Love (romantic or otherwise) is a beautiful thing, and we as humans in general crave to love and be loved in return. So in this respect I do believe that there is a little Romeo in everyone, a Petrarchan lover who loves the idea of being in love, and enjoys the very notion of love.

I don't deny that I may be over-generalising things, that this is the point of view of someone who's had pretty limited experience in love, but in my opinion this does hold true especially among youths of our generation. Just consider the proportion of songs, books, movies today that are almost wholly dedicated to a market of people who want to hear about falling in love, heartbreak, new beginnings, or all of the above, and I think it's pretty clear what's on a lot of teenage minds at this point of time. Granted, the presence of so many of such artistic representations of love may be attributed to the fact that love is one of, if not the most powerful emotion that humans are capable of experiencing, and as such there is naturally a plethora of attempts to express this decidedly and frustratingly indescribable thing. At the same time...maybe it's human nature to so badly want to understand something that so many have tried and failed to comprehend over the course of the entire universe? So maybe we shouldn't have been so harsh on Romeo - we can't pigeonhole love, after all, and maybe his flings/feelings/infatuation (???two years of studying the text and I still don't know what he was doing ._.) with Rosaline and/or Juliet was just his own attempt at what he deemed love should be ^^

Haha ok to end of yet another very rambly post, a song I've been listening on repeat for the past hour HAHA (because Ed Sheeran!!!!):