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(Disclaimer: this is going to be a post fraught with insecurities and nonsensical rambling, I advise everyone against reading it ><)

Sigh suddenly feeling insanely nervous for OCIP :( Before Vietnam it was 80% excitement and 20% nervousness but now the percentages have been reversed haiz >< I guess it's largely due to the fact that Belinda and I have to single-handedly (...double-handedly?) teach all the lessons in the primary school and orphanage for the course of the trip since it's highly unlikely that the other OCIPers will manage to pick up Bahasa over the two language lessons tomorrow and Wednesday, and I am really not sure if I can do that well :( There's additional pressure to be a good teacher from the last batch's Bahasa i/c of the OT too sigh >< (how the heck did he manage to become so emotional over describing CNY to the kids that he almost cried?!?)

I guess I'm less nervous about the Bahasa lessons for the next two days (maybe because I can actually use English T___T) but I think after the first lesson most will want to pon the one on Wednesday haha I don't know how to make stuff interestinggg D: I'm sorry in advance friends T.T Gah sometimes having too much time to myself sucks I end up thinking too much about stuff like this and it makes me want to roll around and cry or something ._.

...bottomline is, I'm flipping terrified :( Sighhh stupid insecurities >< Guess we'll see how everything turns out by the end of Sunday...