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One week to promos!
Sigh it's been...a really hectic week >< Feel so tired everyday after coming back from school, and it honestly feels like I'm already burning out :/ Despite all this I've never felt so unprepared for a major exam before haha sigh I guess promos will show me just how good (...or bad) my improvisation skills are >< Still have this one last crucial week to go, better make it count! Bleh I...really really don't want to disappoint anyone with my results, most of all myself ._. Sigh one of the biggest pains of doing relatively well in schoolwork are the expectations that come along with it- you expect yourself to continue doing well, teachers and parents expect the same or better, even friends start adding on to the pressure that at times gets a little too much :/ Haha an apt example is how I've been doing for my AQs thus far- I feel such a gargantuan amount of pressure every time I do one, cos my GP teacher's photocopied most of the AQs I've done for the class and I feel like if I do an AQ that doesn't get printed, I'll have failed >< Haha this sounds a lot like one of those first world problems (albeit in an academic context) but yeah, come to think of it it's pretty screwed up :/ I guess there are perks to this kind of pressure, but they're mostly academic and I honestly don't really like what it's doing to my state of mind especially during stressful periods like these- feel like such a robot living the monotony of a life made up of incessant cycles of study and sleep :( Sigh I don't know if all this is gonna be worth it in the end but at least I'll know that I tried :)

Something else I've been thinking about quite a bit over the past week: I don't really know why but lately I've been realising how much more introverted I've gotten over the past few years of my life >< Haha it really looks like my levels of introversion have been increasing since my childhood- from my shameless dancing/singing performances when I was 5-ish, to my annoying-kid-in-class phase in P4-5, and the gradual becoming less and less outspoken as I grow older. It's not just that either, I used to dislike being alone quite a bit when I was younger, but now solitude's one of my favourite companions, depressing as that may sound xD Haha I don't know what happened, is this the natural course of things as one grows up? Somehow doubt so but I can't really think of any specific thing that could've contributed to this weird self-evolution T.T Anyway I guess this may be one of the major reasons for my general sense of unease about life nowadays- with everything going on in my life right now it's been a pretty long while since I've had time to just chill with myself and spend time alone doing nothing. Haha never really thought about it but I guess it's true that introverts need time to kind of "recharge" after interaction with other people! It's not that we don't enjoy the company of others or talking to them, not at all, I guess it's just that we just need more "space" :p ...lol okay why am I even talking about this sigh never mind u____u



Ahhhhh still one of my favourite songs :') <3 So heartbreaking yet beautiful ;____; Great song to karaoke to in the shower too hehe ummmm ok nvm bye