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Ahhhh school tomorrow :-( Haha ok I'm actually pretty excited, but still really really nervous for some reason, feel like elephants are stomping around in my stomach >< Or maybe it's just all the sad piano pieces I've been listening to the entire afternoon that's making me feel kind of depressed :P Sigh I hope I still remember how to make friends!!It took me like at least a month to start making good friends in sec one, but I think that's because I kind of closed myself off from others cos I really missed my primary school >< Haha but it should be better now la, hopefully the past four years have made me more adaptable to change and I won't end up feeling lonely D: Mehhh I really shouldn't think so much about this and just hope for the best! 8) (blah Yiruma pieces are really not helping lol I should go listen to more upbeat songs T.T)

Day 29 - If you were a super hero, what kind of powers would you have

Telepathy!!! :D Haha so many times I've wanted to know what someone is really thinking, it'd be really cool to be able to know! 8) But then again I came across a fanfic written in the POV of a telepath, and in the end she became this completely mistrustful and kind of deranged person from reading the thoughts of the people around her, so...maybe not >< Being a normal human's fun anyway! :D

Day 28 - List your five favourite songs of the day

1) endlessly - the cab
2) you've been on my mind - dave days
3) just so you know - jesse mccartney
4) together - kina grannis
5) she (for liz) - parachute

Ahhh so tired >< Haha after today's attempt at mugging I have newfound respect for my pre-O's self man, how on earth did I manage to stay in the library from 10 am to about 8 pm almost everyday?!?!Got bored of studying pretty quick today even with Rachel as company xD Sigh miss wasting spending my afternoons lazing around at home T^T

Really awesome day today hehe <3 Went to Sophia's house with Joyce, Rachel, Isabel and Janis for a movie marathon! :D Haha it was actually supposed to be a horror movie marathon but the trauma we got after watching The Amityville Horror made us decide to watch Mamma Mia first before continuing with Shutter xD Anyway today made me really glad we decided against watching Mama for the A2 outing, I would've screamed at every single scary scene and clung on tightly to whoever sat beside me the entire movie and that'd have been seriously embarrassing :P Haha but freaking out together with fluffy things to squeeze was actually really fun!! :D :D Plus there was daylight so everything was less scary :P Hehe missed everyone so much <3 <3 ^^

Sighhh four days to the start of school!Have to start mugging tomorrow D: Hope I still have the ability to sit and study after 2 months of brain inactivity... x.x

Day 27 - 10 things that make you happy

1) music
2) books
3) smiles
4) hugs
5) spending time with people I love
6) chocolate
7) pretty views
8) stuffed toys
9) windy days
10) starry nights

Too many more to mention, really ^^ Aww writing stuff like these always remind me how lucky I am to be able to experience many of life's little joys :)))

Whoa most tiring day in a long time man >< Haha aiyo do fun stuff also no stamina sigh what's gonna happen to me when school starts ._______. But anyway today was awesome!!! :D Spent the morning with Alyssa, Nicole, Nicolette and Audi, hehe such a long time since we last caught up ^o^ Watched Hansel and Gretel and walked around Orchard until 1ish, then I roamed aimlessly in ion by myself before going to Somerset and meeting ULP A2 peeps :D Haha it's been almost two years since ULP and I can still honestly say my A2 groupmates are some of the awesomest people from RC I know man :D Sigh really hope we don't lose contact after we start JC/poly! :c Watched another movie with them (oh gosh I've been watching way too many movies these past few months ><) and spent the rest of the time catching up yay ^^

Ahhh don't know why I'm so sleepy today meh I'm yawning every 5-10 seconds as I'm typing -______- Sigh don't feel like sleeping yet though T.T (if this post sounds really weird or if I worded something incorrectly forgive me k :P)

Day 26 (SO CLOSE TO THE END OMG) - Do you believe in second chances

Generally, yeah :) People make mistakes and do things against their better judgement sometimes, so if someone does something not very desirable I'm willing to forgive and give second chances most of the time ^^ I think everyone has at least a bit of good inside them, so it wouldn't be very fair to just completely ignore or hate them or whatever cos of a single lapse in judgement right :/ Haha there are exceptions though: repeat offenders and people who do things that are really really against the morals that I value the most in others :/ (eg this is kind of random but I will never ever forgive any guy who may cheat on me in the future ok omg I was reading Jodi Picoult's Mercy yesterday and (spoiler alert!!!) one of the main plotlines was Cam's affair with Mia and I got so pissed at him I almost couldn't bear to continue reading the book >:( I mean I guess I understand that love made him blind or whatever but hello at least tell Allie the truth?? T.T lol oops okay sorry accidental rant ahem shall end here)

Day 25 - 5 things you're looking forward to

1. Tomorrow :D
2. Rereading The Giver
3. Starting JC (to a certain extent la :P)
4. Cuddling with my bolster tonight
5. Um...the rest of my life? :D

.....sigh what is my life OTL

Lovely day today hehe ^^ Went for an extremely unfruitful shopping expedition with Chen Yee and Isabel at Bugis before spending about 3 hours sitting in the food court talking :D Haha sighhh these two ah posting results not even out yet already got HC/RJ rivalry... OTL HAHAHA oh yeah:


Hilarious video (especially the second half!!! :D), made us a complete public nuisance cos of all the laughing man xD

Day 24 - When you've had a terrible day, how do you deal with it?

I flop onto my bed and go to sleep as soon as I humanly can, and hope fervently that the next day will be better. ^^

Hehe downloaded Parachute's albums today upon a junior's insistent urging and I think I'm in love :D :D Honestly cannot decide which songs I like the most, just letting all the songs loop over and over again <3

Day 23 - Something that's illegal but you think it should be legal

Gay marriage >:( I really don't see why people shouldn't be allowed to marry whoever they want to!Most important thing's that they love each other, right? :/ I guess society's becoming a little more open towards this issue though, especially the younger generation so yay there's hope for a better future! :D

Day 22 - Bullet your day

Went shopping with my mum today! ^^ Haha we planned to shop for CNY clothes but ended up getting more of non-CNY related stuff :D I think the generation gap between the two of us becomes most obvious when we shop for clothes together cos our fashion tastes are pretty different, and we always argue about stupid stuff like whether the (really really cute btw) owl on a shirt will give bad vibes to some superstitious people or if cap sleeves make our hands look fat :P Haha nevertheless it was a lot of fun so it's been a really good day! ^o^ Hehe hope this weather will stick around for a bit too :)))

Sigh around 12 more days to the first day of school!!Ahh starting to get mixed feelings, and at the moment nervousness is at the very top of the list .____. Bleh :c

Day 21 - Powerful song lyrics you love

What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them?
What are words if they're only for good times, then they don't?
When it's love, yeah you say them out loud
Those words, they never go away
They live on even when we're gone
-What are Words, Chris Medina

Hmm this was pretty hard, there are a lot of amazing songs with really lovely lyrics out there but this was the first song that popped into my mind so :) Haha I actually learned the story behind the song before listening to it, sigh it's the first song that's been able to make me cry the first time I listened to it ;_; Mannn every girl in the world should have a guy like Chris! :')

So, so glad I have you as a friend, thank you. :') 

Day 20 - Something you did as a child that other people remember you for 

Haha okay background info - I really liked dancing when I was little, but the interest died since I turned about 9 xD (I'm convinced I look like an electrocuted pig when I attempt to dance, so that's probably a good thing :P) Anyway whenever my relatives came over to my house I'd go change into my ballet costume and kind of give them a "performance" (haha I was so shameless omg), and until now whenever I meet some of my relatives who've watched me they still mention those dances to me ._____. Sigh still cringe whenever I think of the fact that my parents actually taped some of those dances oh gosh ><

People are often unreasonable, irrational and self-centred. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.
Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.
In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa

Good to be reminded of this once in a while ^^

Hehehehe yayyyy didn't nua at home doing nothing today!!!! ^o^ Made a promise to myself to get out of the house at least once every day so I won't turn into a useless lump of cells over these two weeks :P Haha spent the morning/early afternoon reading and trying to learn You Belong With Me on the guitar, and my attempt flopped quite miserably lol but never mind I have time! ^^ Then Rachel came over with her guitar and I listened to her play omg this girl is seriously magic with the piano and the guitar ok *.* *.* Haha and after a while we went to the gym to exercise, felt really good having my first proper workout in at least two months :D :D Hope I won't wake up tomorrow aching all over though... orz

Haha forgot about the 30 day challenge again omg I think I may have set a new record for the longest time taken to complete one of these!

Day 19 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality 

I'm a Sagittarius! :D Hmmm I think generally most of the things I've read online about Sags (._____. sigh horrible nickname) apply to me, although I don't think I'm as restless and uncommitted as a lot of articles say??Or at least I hope not D: Haha I'm not sure I believe in all this astrology stuff actually, but there's quite a bit of truth from what I've seen in others/myself, so... o.O

something about the slightly eerie silence of the night that makes me take off the tinted glasses i seem to have been wearing the entire day and see things in a completely different light

life is simple really we're the ones who make it complicated with all this negativity and overthinking and selfishness throw all these away and you'll see how beautiful every little thing truly is

the root of happiness after all lies in appreciating with your whole heart and soul what you have and not in continuously coveting what you don't

(i will learn to live before i die)

Sigh aiyo finally convinced my parents to let me choose HC but someone is reeeeally not happy with me >< Don't even know if I can get in though, heard from a friend that there have been two-pointers who've been rejected by HC and accepted by RJ in the past :/ Haha okay never mind I'll just leave it in the hands of God and see where His path takes me! :)

Great morning today, had Mass and lunch with my family and Rachel! ^^ Sigh have two hours of piano again today though, thanks to all the lessons I missed last month >< Haha not that I don't like playing the piano, I love it to bits but spending two hours playing scales and the same three exam pieces I've been practising for the past half year really makes me hfiuhifuwehfiq T.T

What to do for the next two weeks???Reserved the last three days (heheh feel kinda guilty for spending so little time on studies but :P) for revising but that still leaves quite a lot of free time... OTL Haha I guess we'll see!

Have a good week ahead everyoneee bye! :D

Sigh feels really good talking to Rachel/Alyssa/Kimberly about everything from scandals (INSERT 1000000 SMUG EMOJIS @ RACHEL ;))) this is payback!!!) to JC choices to perks of older brothers this afternoon/tonight :') Haha this is random but I really love you guys (and all my other friends too!!! <3 <3) a lot okay sobs ;___; Don't know what mental state I'd be in now without friends in my life, honestly ._. Hehe sorry random outburst of affection (blame the PMS again :P) bye!

Another really nice day, went for RJ open house and class running man! ^^ Haha got a bit sunburned but the fun was worth it! :P

Sigh feel kind of emo today though .______. I don't even know why I'm finding it so hard to make a decision, I guess it's probably cause I'm torn between pleasing my parents and making a choice that I'm more comfortable with? :/ Haha but still doesn't explain why it's taking such a toll on how down I'm feeling/behaving .______. Shall take the easy way out and blame it on PMS :P

Still...I did feel myself standing on the edge of the deep dark hole that is self-doubt at one point today :/ I've tried to contact as many HC/RJ graduants as I could (don't know how to thank all of them enough for giving me such long descriptive replies, how are people so nice??? ;____;), and I'm taking what they're saying into consideration, in addition to what I've seen and how I generally feel about the schools, so I really really hope I'll end up making the best choice for myself!And of course that my parents will y'know respect my decision, whatever it may be ._.

...I think I've made up my mind.Oh for goodness' sakeeee 14th January come already!!!!Don't want to keep doubting myself aishhh :<

Hehehe really really lovely day today, but too lazy to recount everything so... OTL :P Sigh just hope that my parents will trust me enough to make the final decision myself, and not force me into doing something I don't really want to do ._.

(HAHA somehow feel really guilty about being too lazy to write about today???sobs am I getting addicted to blogging too ;_;)

W M M T T T W B A D?I R D K W H I J F C I E O I H l M O H O S E...W W H L A M T S E D H A :(  B T I W R I O T I R D :(. 
Sigh I should really dig out my old diary from wherever it is, for times like these when I need to put my thoughts into words but don't really have a safe outlet :/ 

Head is just filled with so so so many things right now I'm actually starting to get a headache :( Sigh still having this really weird feeling of emptiness I've had since the release of the results, it seriously feels like I'm an emotionless shell cos I really feel nothing! Maybe it's just the after effects of finding out something you've been waiting for for so long, but whatever it is I really hope I'll be able to get rid of this feeling soon ._.


Tiring but really fun day! ^^ Went for the VJC and ACJC open houses with Rachel and Isabel (Joyce you lazy poop :<) and met a lot of friends along the way xD Haha ok disclaimer these are just my personal opinions on the two schools k don't take them too seriously :P VJ was really really awesome, the people were all so nice and the school generally had a really comfortable vibe! Got the unofficial tour from Rachel's senior and another old SC girl at first, then Zi Wei ma'am and Aisyah ma'am joined us when they met me xD Awww sigh really miss my seniors a lot :') Haha also Isabel and I were wearing SC So Cool shirts so we heard so many "Hey I'm from SC too!"s from random old girls in VJ, which was cool!! 8D Hehe yeah anyway I won't plonk in all my notes about the school (lol felt like I'd been transported back to post-PSLE days) but VJ's just really cool la 8) Oh yeah saw quite a lot of our batchmates there and I met Jeremy too! Haha always nice to catch up with a primary school friend ^^ Then we went for lunch with Sophia, Rachel Tan and Kelsey before going on to AC, at this point I was feeling quite drained already haha don't know la it's just walking but my stamina was so bad today... OTL Hehe and this time Su-Lin ma'am was the one who gave us an unofficial tour! ^^ Perks of having seniors in different JCs~ :P Haha kiddinggg!!Really love my seniors a lot a lot for being so sweet to volunteer to do this kind of stuff for us :D Anyway AC was cool too! Everyone seems so happy and friendly and high in JC??? Maybe that's why some of our teachers told us that their JC days were the happiest they've had :o


Wah I seriously need to be distracted man I've been so nervous for Thursday the entire time I've been awake today :( Attempted to read just now to think of something else but ended up back in square one when the topic of results came up again with my friends xD Haha but they did help a lot in making me chiller about it so hehe thanks pals :) I just need to remember to let go and let God, because He has a plan for me and whether or not I end up doing as well as I want to, I have to keep the faith that this is the path He believes is best for me ^^

though the embers are new whatever you do just don't let the fire die 

Hehe had an awesome day with Rachel and Theo today! ^^ Watched Les Misérables which was really really good, it gave me chills so many times and I left the cinema still kind of haunted and with this weight on my chest??Haha I don't know if that makes sense but yeah :o Cried a lot less than I expected to though, seriously felt weird cos I'm usually someone who cries at movies like Alice in Wonderland :P Hehe maybe I'm growing up and becoming less of a crybaby!! :'D Anyway then we wandered around for a bit and visited two really adorable cats in YCK ^u^ ^u^ Sigh pie times like those I really wish I didn't have this weird fear of touching most animals T^T Fingers crossed I'll somehow be able to get over it soon!!! Haha and after that we went for the NYP open house (um which was already over but it's the thought that counts right? :D) and the stuff there was pretty cool! ^^ Then we hung around in my house and listening to both of them playing guitar so coolly really made me wish I'd taken our sec 2 guitar lessons more seriously :P Hehe anyway it's been a really great day!! ^o^ Hope the next two days will be good too, just in case (TOUCH LOTS AND LOTS OF WOOD well not like it'll help since results are already set in stone but) I get bad news on Thursday and end up emoing for at least a week ><

Sigh sometimes I really wish some form of omniscient machine that you can ask questions to existed, cause having these mixed feelings of insecurity/anxiety/curiosity/a-little-bit-of-hope sucks .____. (not only referring to the release of results too .~.) But then again I guess if we were to have the ability to know the answers to all the questions in the world, life would be pretty boring :s (and anyway secrets are meant to be kept until its keeper decides that it's time) Haha ok never mind sorry for the random bout of pensiveness (and the cryptic sentences in small font :P), probably just being dumb and overthinking things again D:

Hehe have a good rest of the week everyone, bye! :)

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

Haha I've taken to reading my old blog posts in a fit of boredom! Suddenly thought of one of our RC level outings from sec 1 just now, and I remember it being one of the happiest days of my sec sch life so I went to stalk myself in the hopes that I blogged about it but no :(((( Haha but it's okay reading all these mundane details about my younger self's life is pretty fun!!!! :D (albeit immensely mortifying at times, to the extent where I literally cringe and cannot continue reading out of shame orz orz orz) I seem so much more lively back then!! (lol I sound like some old grandma reminiscing her youth ok never mind) Hehe also found a bunch of songs I used to be obsessed with but which I forgot about over time, so yeah it feels nice to listen to all of them again ^^ <3

Haha okay nights everyone!

Hehe happy new year everyone!!!! ^^ Still can't really believe that it's already 2013, I still get like this weird shock whenever I see or hear anything that reminds me that 2012 is over xD Haha but I'm looking forward to this year, and hope it'll be a great one! :)

Sigh I'm actually really lazy to blog but I don't want my blog to die again :P Haha blogging for the first time from an iPad cause I (really really stupidly and blurly) left my laptop behind in Jakarta! D: Feels the same actually, with the added bonus of autocorrect :D Hehe anyway oh yeah my Europe trip was really awesome!!! ^^ We were visiting about 14 cities in 8 countries over 10 days, so almost half the time we spent awake was spent on road trips haha but the views from the bus were super pretty so the time went by quickly! All the places we visited had amazing views but my favorite countries were Switzerland and France!!!So so so so so so pretty omg and the weather in these countries were the least frostbite-inducing at this time of the year so :D :D Oh yeah the tour group was awesome too everyone was so nice and sweet!!! ^^ I was the oldest non-adult in the group though so that made me feel kind of old xD Haha the only parts I really disliked about the trip were definitely the plane rides to and from, which gave me the worst jet lags I've ever experienced and seemed to drag on forever D: Watching old Disney classics and some movies I wanted to watch but never got to helped a lot though :'D OHHHH and I listened to One Direction's new album Take Me Home on the plane ride back and fell in love with every single song at first listen!!! :'D Haha I think I'm gonna get converted into a Directioner soon! Still can't differentiate between all the guys though orz

Hehe okay anyway went back to SC for CCA walkabout yesterday with Rachel and Isabel! ^^ Being back really reminded me of how much I missed the school and everyone in it T.T But I got to see some teachers and juniors again (and eat 虾面!!!!!!) so that was lovely :D Meh next time I go back it'll be for collection of O's results D: Sigh trying not to get too freaked out over it so I'm trying to block out all my O's related thoughts until at least the day before...Every time I think about it my heart seriously pounds like 3 times faster and I get this really uneasy feeling, which sucks!!! D: Goodness knows how emotionally unstable I'm going to be just before we collect our results T.T Nooooooo okay must chill and stop thinking about that :<

Okay moving onnn had a really nice Saturday today! ^^ Spent a large part of the day reading (I Am Number Four series: READ IT!!!!Literally couldn't put the books down until I finished!) then walked around the neighbourhood in the afternoon (HAHA cool coincidence just heard my mum complaining to her friend that I went off for 3 hours without asking her to accompany me aiyo) which made me feel less like the couch potato that I'm starting to become :P Sigh but piano lesson tomorrow and before yesterday I didn't touch a piano for over a month so I really hope my teacher doesn't murder me ><

Haha wow okay must end this long ass rambly blog post xD Bye!